Peek Into My Journal
From my Journal notes,
I have chosen to share the following activities with you!
December 19th, I signed a lease for an apartment in Billings, Montana. Yep, you got it. I cried most of the day…physical pain and emotional pain made the day stressful. January 1st was my day to move into the apartment! Slowly, it is taking on the personality of home.
I retired my Tennessee Real Estate License the last day of December.
I am a resident of Billings, Montana and I will bloom where I am planted! That begins with thanks for a beautiful and empty apartment. My household furniture is in Storage in Tennessee. At some point in time, I will go back and decide what to do with the things there. Perhaps, I will stay then and reinstate my license to sell homes. For now, I will live and be at home in Montana.
On New Years Day, my new furniture from Furniture Row was delivered!
So many changes in 2020 were sad. This move was impulsive, necessary and a force of nature to completely change my plans for the future. God’s favor seemed to shine on me for the location and amenities essential to improve my health. I am excited.
My plans were to build a little house in Tennessee. It would have been one- story and a cousin to the tiny house movement. This apartment is the exact layout and square footage I drew out 6 years ago for the little house I planned to build! Do I have my tiny little home here?
Overwhelmed by the small and almost empty space, I took time out to really get sick or something. I haven’t been able to walk more than across the room for over a month. It is time for more changes.
The first right thing was to find living accommodations. The next right thing is to correct my health issues.
In conclusion, for this week my activities have included completing essential purchases for the new apartment, chiropractic care, healthy clean eating, beginning physical therapy and lots of Amazon Shopping!
I look forward to sharing my journey starting over with nothing 2200 miles away from home.
Goforth & Prosper,
Molinda Sue
New Year….2021
NEW YEAR!
Today starts a new year. I will Go-forth and Call-forth the good memories and begin to create new good memories! There isn’t any news to post today. I am so excited though. My life has completely changed. Tomorrow, I will begin to share the changes.
Goforth&Prosper
Molinda Sue
Good Food, Great Service
A comedy of errors, sprinkled with laughter, tears, frustration and finally peace at home with food!
First, there was a prescription to pick up. Next, the post office. I thought I had misplaced a debit card or perhaps it hadn’t arrived and would in my mail. It wasn’t at the post office. As a result, a nagging fear it was lost traveled down the road with me to Olive Garden where I met a friend and I ordered soup. It was great to visit.
The Drama Began!
I called my son and asked him to call the Deli and order a sandwich he would like! He agreed. Then, he text the sandwich would be ready in 15 minutes.
Feeling joyful, I traveled to the Deli and sat outside for another 5 minutes. It seemed strange there were not any cars there. The lights were one. Time up, I went to the door and it was locked! Closed!
Another quick call revealed I was at the wrong Deli. Quickly, I drove 2 blocks and went into Jersey Mike’s Subs. The young lady said they did not have an order. She made a phone call to their second location and said the order had been received there and she would make another one!
While waiting, I walked to my car and could see my keys locked inside my car! I called AAA for help.
AAA arrived and unlocked my car. Our order was ready.
Recommendation!
Live in the Heights in Billings? Are you visiting this area? Stop at 315 Main Street. These are the most accommodating people. The food is fresh, delicious, and affordable!
They would not take payment for the Sandwich and added a couple of goodies in the bag. Today, I want to recommend this place to you! Enjoy a meal.
Goforth and Prosper
Molinda Sue
Happy Healthy Monday
Last Monday in September. It’s been a month of drastic, sudden changes and followed by adopting or deleting the changes. I am happy and working on my health.
One visit to Urgent Care, a couple of prescriptions and I drove home knowing bad habits are on the path to destruction. Happy, loving me activities change this! For the record, I procrastinated going to the Urgent Care Clinic for 3 days. I totally decided when I arrived they would do a COVID test and perhaps make me wait 4 days for results. I hesitated because of the anticipated crowd at the clinic. Both assumptions were wrong!
At Billings Clinic in the Heights, I quickly checked in and in a few minutes I was in a room to see the Physicians Assistant. She was caring, professional and compassionate. After carefully listening to my complaints, she ordered blood work, did the routine blood pressure check and determined this illness was related to the one last October.
I left with 2 prescriptions for Antibotics and with peace of mind. Next stop was Mary’s Health Food Store, to get Pro-biotics.
This week I started a 5 day challenge on line exercise! It is amazing and after 3 days I can visibly see some results! Imagine how I will feel in a month.
My car isn’t Montana friendly. It stresses me out just thinking about driving in winter, Today, I shopped for a car. Subaru was on my list as a possible choice. I will continue to shop until I meet the car I can live in. I drive a lot so the term live in is appropriate.
My gift to new friends is giving them the opportunity to meet and greet in a zoom room We will have one party a month. Much fun is anticipated!
Let’s Go Forth & Prosper,
Molinda Sue
Birthday Celebration
September came in like a Lion! The best part was Celebration time with my family.
This post is about September 1st, my Birthday and the Celebration. I don’t especially love numbers for birthdays, but I am grateful for everyday I have been on this earth.
My Celebration includes my Son in Spokane, Washington and his family and my Son in Woodbridge, Virginia and his family. Since I am in Billings with the third Son and my granddaughter, you know we are definitely Social Distancing!
Home to me is Tennessee, anywhere with a Tennessee zip code. I am definitely a Tennessee Volunteer!
Kris and my granddaughter live in Billings. I have been blessed the past several years to be in here for my Birthday. I tell you, he always plans something very Special. It usually includes food! Billings is a host for many wonderful Restaurants and I was sure we had visited them all.
I was Wrong! He didn’t say anything about celebrating my birthday this year. I thought he had forgotten. Wrong again! We had reservations at Montana’s Rib and Chop house!
A meal with Eliana, my granddaughter is always a pleasure. She loves to eat and savors each bite!
Eliana loves steak. Her steak was perfect, so tender it would have cut with a fork. The atmosphere and service was the best!
I had Chicken Marsala and honestly, I forgot what Kris ordered. I do remember dessert was a complimentary Crème Brûlée! We ate too much, laughed and enjoyed being out, seated safely, but in an ordinary setting.
In conclusion, when the waitress brought our check, she brought a signed card for me!
If you visit or live in Billings, Montana please eat here. You won’t be disappointed. For now, let’s
Goforth and Prosper,
Molinda Sue
Disconnect, Unplug, Reset
Disconnected, Unplugged and Reset
Do you have trouble with your awful memories? I am amused when I meet a divorcee who delights in sharing their awful experience during the relationship. The divorce did not disconnect!
I had some of those experiences. Can’t remember when just now, because I disconnected.
When I plugged in again, the memories were still there but I chose to rewrite the story, embracing the good times! I disconnected, Unplugged and reset.
Adoption – Family Disconnect
Three years ago on Mothers day, my half sister called and the highlight of the conversation was she said she wasn’t sure I belonged to her Dad. Since I had struggled with my identity since I was 7, in anger and disappointment I just deleted her.
I wrote her off, disconnected, unplugged and never intended to reset.
Fast forward three years and on Mothers day I briefly remembered that call, where I was and the feelings. I had not spoken with her since the call. Those memories were uninvited and not welcome, so it was a brief stay.
Imagine my flash back of feelings when the phone rang and her identity popped up. I hesitated then decided I should answer. No longer disconnected, we were plugged in.
She was calling me at the request of her twin brother, my half brother and the news was shocking.
He had been ill for 2 weeks and the diagnosis was 4th stage cancer. There was no cure.
He requested her to make calls to relatives and to request prayer. She said I was the first person he asked her to call. During the next two weeks, I dealt with a flood of unpleasant memories from her, none of which I expressed. I also felt conflicting feelings of compassion for her. After all he was her twin. He was my brother and in fact she was my half sister.
There was a storm of Love from Him! We talked 3 times during his hospital stay and covered many wonderful memories. His illness lasted 4 weeks and he passed on.
During this time, he shared in no uncertain terms with his adult children and those around him that I was and always had been his little sister. For the first time ever, I was named in an obituary and it listed me as a sister. As a family, he pushed the reset button!
For three years I unplugged. As children, we did not live in the same house. For me, this time of grief and reconnecting was healing. I am so excited that the door of love is open with his twin sister – my sister.
Illustrate this with your computer. When you troubleshoot, the first thing you do is disconnect from the electricity.
Our thoughts are like electrical currents that feed our emotions and escalate to the boiling temperature. If we can disconnect and not react to the situation, we may avoid an explosion. I did. In time, we may have the opportunity to rewrite the story.
What happens when you plug the computer back in? It is connected to the power source that brings it to life…Now, push the on button to activate the computer.
Oh, this little machine has a memory and you can connect on the problem file and bring it all to life. You can Delete that file. Choose love and kindness to rewrite the file and fill with some good memories.
These are two examples in my life where I unplugged.
An abandoned baby, eventually adopted, a love seeker collecting marriage and divorce certificates, I attended the school of hard knocks to learn about disconnecting! It’s the best lesson ever.
In my opinion unplugging isn’t just pretending it didn’t happen. It’s choosing to respond to a situation instead of reacting. Given time, if the situation is close to the heart, a time will come to reconnect and reset.
God tells us to Forgive. Sometimes a situation causes much emotional hurt and we realize Forgiveness is an Action not a feeling. Disconnecting is also an action, not necessarily a feeling.
Did my desire to belong go away just because a half sister had made it clear she did not want me in her space as a half sister? No. For weeks after the phone call, I would declare out loud …I forgive.
Oh, then I heard a cute little saying, I forgave you and now I will forget you. So, that’s how I disconnected in this situation. I thought it was permanent.
That is not how God operates. He forgives and forgets our actions not us. If we ask for wisdom, sometimes God reveals the other side of the story and let’s us feel compassion.
This is a Sunday post…I listened to our minister online today. He taught about Daniel. Daniel did what was right. I know when we do what is right, God takes care of the rest. We are not responsible for the actions of others only our response.
There is an additional healing in my soul today. I loved my brother. He wasn’t my half brother, he was and is my brother. My story of adoption, rejection and searching for the unknown, spans over many years and many mistakes. I pray to live in God’s favor and wisdom for the remaining days here.
The wrong current can ruin an appliance, We are like an appliance in God’s hands. Sometimes we overload, crash and burn, but He can put us together again.
Do you love me? Do you love me? Oh my God says, ” Yes, I love you.”
Go Forth and Prosper,
Molinda Sue
Goodbye July……..
My favorite month of the year blew in many sad emotions.
My Brother died in Kentucky. I was not in a position to leave Montana.
No one here knew him or of him. No one here shared the memories I shared with him.
Left alone with memories consuming me, I walked around like a zombie during the last week of July.
I almost rented an apartment here. Almost means I made a deposit, non refundable to hold it until August 1st. It’s important to be at peace in your home. I walked into that apartment many times during the last days of July. No peace for me lived there. Bye Apartment. Bye money Deposit.
Drastic Change of Habits
With that parting, I have set goals, implementation plans and dates for completion of changes before October 31st!
No friends, it’s intermediate fasting time, keto for the next 2 months, and debt elimination every day. Yes, I said every day. Time for worship and visitation with God each day, and time to laugh each day.
Any tips and actions you use successfully will be most appreciated.
Giving
This month is one of giving. My most important goal for the month of August is to give a gift each day. Since my computer was ill and I couldn’t share the gifts for August 1 and 2nd I will tell you now!
Saturday and Sunday was a gift of giving time to my granddaughter. It was also my gift to me – a time to grieve for my family in Kentucky, a time to reflect intensely on the blessings I have and time for one on one visit with my granddaughter.
Yes, a crisis jumped in and I didn’t handle it well. So, I unplugged, reset and moved on! Good bye July.
It’s a glorious first week of August. Let’s
Goforth and Prosper,
Molinda Sue