Friday

Words, a word, written words, vocal words,  my 500 words…my focus last year.  My salvation was writing 500 words each day.  I made a commitment  to Jeff Goins and the writing group.

Writing  500 words daily was medicine for my soul, a purging of my brain, a recognition for good things in life. I documented my plans and results for 2017.

Jeff offered a writing prompt each day. Once he suggested we write our Eulogy.  Another time he suggested we write about Fear.

I tried to write my Eulogy. I was stuck….like a business that was born, grew, bloomed and withered on the path…I felt withered so postponed writing my eulogy…Writing and talking to others inspired me to do something with the Eulogy that I will share later.

I wrote about fear, it unraveled like a faded ball of yarn….many different colors.  I wrote and I cried. I shared. Cried many tears and wrote many words until I was sure I conquered fear.

Starting 2018, I did the after action review of 2017 and I gave thanks for the things accomplished.  I am thankful I recognize  the hidden despair, disguised in pretty words, hidden fears….restrictions stated as fact  and not true at all. This form of denial has been my mask for years.  Last year was an improvement but fear definitely prevented some success.

Here on Excellent avenue, the snow is falling. God must be emptying the heavens!  It is beautiful.  Why does it remind me of the prompt to write about fear?

How on earth could snow make my stomach churn, my spirit dampen, generate this  awful forlorn feeling?  Fear.  Thoughts of:  I can’t get out, may fall and break my ankle again, can’t drive my  car, can’t go get groceries..

The word Can’t controlled my mind for hours.  Why couldn’t I get out?  Why couldn’t I drive.  Remember, when we lose our Why, we lose our way. My Why?  I was Afraid. Also, I was miserable, felt stuck, lots of negative thoughts.  So, I made a list of things I will not Tolerate this year….

Revelation,  writing the action steps to conquer fear doesn’t change anything.  Action is required.  My list of Will not Tolerate, transforms to goals to eliminate the intolerable, and plans to implement. Many things I listed not to tolerate had a control button called Fear.

For a list of the things I will not Tolerate this year….check out the post this coming Thursday!….   Fear doesn’t live on Excellent Avenue. Moving to the new address means filling my body, mind and soul with happy things.

New Inspiration……MTWTFSS…..you guessed it …first letter of the day of the week. These are my new writing prompts and the outline for my blog.   Using the first letter of each day, I made a list of 30 most important words that begin with the days first. letter.  Google the important words for a letter.  It’s fun!  Two words chosen from today’s list  are Fear and Finished.

Get this!  We have snow….lots of snow.  It is so cold here 11 degrees is a heat wave to me.  I am not a cold weather girl. I digested the word cold makes me hurt, sad but true…..

Existing  in a tiny basement apartment and looking outside at the cold deep fluffy blanket of snow,  I put some treads on my shoes and out I went…. shoveled snow! No room for Fear of Falling, shoveling, .. Yelp,  I did it  and I physically felt great afterward!

I shoveled so I could get my car out…. shoveled and shoveled. Then, I came inside turned the heating pad on and waited to hurt.  No pain!

My adrenaline was flowing. My son came home and we rode out to the store.  Oh my goodness,  the roads were clear…mostly, I could have driven my car…..Just the 125 feet of the drive leading out to the street was atrocious.  Standing at the beginning of the driveway, I couldn’t see the main street.  I looked; I was Afraid…..Fear,  get out of my life…everything I want is on the other side of fear.

My second word for Friday is Finished.    Somewhere around 3:00 pm will do an after action view of the weeks accomplishments.  At the end of the day,  work will be Finished and I can look forward to relaxing and Fun activities for the weekend.  Lots of words will make up Friday’s.  Finished is a staple word reminding me not to procrastinate.

Monday’s theme is Menu….You know, I moved and this new place is stocked with different things.  Menu for life, God, eating, …traveling…..So Monday come and meet my new healthy food menu!  See you there…… I have lost 3 pounds this week!  Let me share with you .

go forth and prosper

Molinda Sue

Thank you Jeff Goins, thank you writing friends you are on my gratitude list daily!