Molinda Goforth

Ankle replacement has dominated my thoughts.  It seems each thing I did this past week linked to the thought of surgery and being in bed for a couple of weeks, immobile for 3 months.  I am pretty close to feeling I don’t want that.

My right foot was the one injured.  It hurts 24 hours each day.  It swells. A brief glance at the surgical procedure looks like this.

The procedure takes from 4 to 7 hours.  Recovery time approximately 6 months.

In church yesterday, I watched the drummer pat his foot and thought I can’t do that.  Perhaps, I do want the surgery.  Later this week I may hear from the Doctor in Raleigh. He will share with me if they want to do  the surgery.

Here’s the deal.  I will have 6 months of being uncomfortable, in pain and then the remainder of my life without pain from my foot, and less limitations.  Sounds pretty good.

Building the little house burns in my sou!  There will be at time of planning, choosing to eliminate immediate pleasures for a secure life debt free.  This time of change  also be uncomfortable. Following completion of the debt free goal and home, there will be a time of freedom from the slavery of owing others.

It is time to apply the scripture and in to be at peace in the present. I will  enjoy this day.  Thot for today:  Prayer says Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.  Do you think there is pain in Heaven?   Do you think there are mortgages in Heaven?

I had the wind knocked out of my sails Monday July 8th.  I have shared with you that my right foot is a mess.  Made the trip to Raleigh, Durham to see an Awesome surgeon only to get the results he would like to refer me to another physician.  The ankle will require a specialist in Ankle Replacement.  Hmmm

More good news followed this week when I went in and was told my performance at work did not conform with their expectations.  Amazing.

Oh, and a  gentleman who seemed to be becoming more than a friend was fired and totally retreated from me.

Lessons in Rejection hurt.  My question for this week will apply to everything I do.   Do I want this or need this.   Do I want more from the man?  Yes.  I don’t need more.   Do  I want approval at work?  Yes.  I don’t need it.  Do I want my ankle to be better.  Yes.    I need it.

Do I want a little house?  Yes.  I need a little house.

What do you want today?  Do you need it?

It is Sunday and I want to worship with others.  I need the fellowship and closeness with God.  How about you?

I have a long drive from Sevierville, Tennessee to Lumberton, North Carolina today.  It has been awhile since I took a road trip.

In the morning I will continue the journey to Raleigh, North Carolina where I will get my foot evaluated.

Memories flood my mind this morning of that evening so long ago when I drove a Van into a tree.  Rain was falling softly as I rounded the familiar curve an applied the brakes.  They locked.  It was a horrendous ending to the day.  Several of my ribs were broken, my liver punctured, my heart bruised and my foot broken, extended from it’s position and laying to the side .

Gratitude wraps me as I thank God for walking with me each day and raising my tolerance of pain to a new level. It was a year after the accident before I could walk.  I love my little foot!  That’s right, it is little.  I wear a size 5 shoe.  More on this progress tomorrow afternoon!

Enjoy this day and worship.

 

We all relate and think we know the definition for a Hit Man!   Now, I am a Hit Woman!  It’s Sunday and my mission for today to to Hit each negative thought, and knock it out of my park!

Enjoyed a wonderful service at church.  The minister shared his thoughts of what it would be like to be invisible.  Then, he followed with the difficulty we sometimes have that God isn’t visible.   For me, I am more aware that one reason I tend to try to assist God with fixing the problems I have created is that I can’t see him eye to eye, can’t plead my case and convince Him I may be right.

Next, I have been holding onto “things” that are tangible and that I can see.  Today, I surrender the visible and the invisible.  It’s an exhilarating feeling.

Thank you God for Sundays.

It is over cast here this morning.  Misting Rain.  When I got up, a box was sitting by my bed, doing nothing but containing papers, papers and more  papers.  Of course, I started sorting.  That isn’t the first thing I usually do.

That is one of the things that happens when you are planning to move to a little house.  All of the cobwebs, preconceived ideas, plans and actions of the past have to be cleared.   You will find the little notes and papers you have saved over the years have multiplied.  Honestly,  for me it seems they procreated!

Decisions, decisions, decisions.  Each piece of paper was kept for a reason.  Now, in this box I find tax information from 1993, a letter from Vic who has been deceased for years, a picture from my first marriage.  Don’t feel disgust.

I bet if you went through your things, you would  feel the same muddled feelings I do!  So,  The box has now become two boxes.  One box is to keep.

One box contains papers to go to Staples and be shredded.  Note to self:  Carefully choose what may be important 1 year from now.  Not important? Discard.

My world exploded this week.  It fell apart like Humpty Dumpty!  I don’t want to put it back together.  I found lots of treasures inside.

First, during my physical the Doctor referred me to a podiatrist. Wow! The result of that visit revealed my foot that was injured 20 years ago can be fixed!  Let me share a bit of foot history. My foot was broken during a car wreck, developed an ulcer during the healing process, refused to heal and amputation recommended.   After 4 surgeries and my own physical therapy and Gods Grace I still have it  It is crooked.  It hurts.  It can be fixed!

So, add surgery to my agenda.

Secondly, I  let my real estate license for two additional states lapse.  Today,  I called and I can reinstate one of them.  That spells some extra money.  Twill go in the little tin box for the little house.

Work at the JOB  has a new meaning. I see a straighter road head.  Tonight, I intend to sleep.  I am very tired.  In the morning I will focus completely on the job and try to do it well.

Good Night John Boy and the rest of you peeps,

See you tomorrow. Join me at Home Depot in the afternoon.

Imaging you are living in a debt free home.  You don’t have to remember the payment is due.  You don’t have to worry about it becoming past due.

Imagine it is built green and your utility bills are low.  You have back up support and don’t have to worry if the power is off.  Miss a day’s work?  No worry, you have enough money.

Jesus went to prepare a place for us.  He paid the mortgage.  It is the Fathers will that life on earth is as it is in Heaven!  Let’s move into the arms of His will!

I have located a building that may become my home here on earth.  Follow me as I share and offer you a Passport for Home Freedom!

Tomorrow is Sunday!  I have my things ready for church in the morning.  Have to work until 11 tonight.

I was thinking earlier that Dolly Parton said she always had an altar where ever she stayed.  I am renting a room in a private home.  Before next Sunday, I will prepare an altar in my room.

A prayer corner will be included in the design for my little house.  Do you have one?

Yesterday was completed at midnight!  I was too tired to write.  When I lay down, I remembered the smell of home when I was a teenager!.  At night in the summer we would have a fan blowing and the window open.  The outside air carried the sound of crickets singing and the stillness of night. The fan circulated the lingering smell of dinner,  my mothers nighttime lotion and the pillowcase that was stiff with starch.

When I came home from work,where I stay didn’t smell like home.  For the time being, it is home.  For me to feel peaceful, home needs have a familiar comforting smell.  It is fun and motivating to look forward to my move. Last night,  I burned a vanilla candle for a few minutes before I went to sleep.  It changed the flavor of the smell to something I found familiar.

Buyers have a certain criteria when choosing a house.  When I was showing a house to sell,  I found that burning a candle helped calm a potential buyer.  Then, they would spend more time considering the house.  Again, a reflection of the Smell of Home.

This morning I can smell the new lumber!  Dreaming a bit, my little house will have lots of wood, perhaps wood floors, cedar in the closet and a variety of wood cabinets.  I am changing my menu this morning to just browse through a couple of magazines and decorate the little house in my mind!

Off to an Awesome morning!

When you go to a restaurant, there are several things to choose.  First is an appetizer, then the main course and  dessert must follow.  All is served with a choice of  drink.  What would you like to drink is usually the first question.

I choose my Cup of Courage this morning!  Recently I drank from the bitter cup of loneliness and it’s great to change that menu.  My Cup of Courage speaks that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Main menu for today is the 7.5 hours at work.  Appetizer for this morning is the daily Bible Reading, then catch up from chores I did not do Saturday and Sunday.  A friend is sick and requires a trip to the Doctor.  just when you think you have it all together, do you find things you did not plan for tend to interrupt your day?

My dessert will be a cup of coffee at Books A Million and researching articles for construction of the Little House!

Fun day planned!