In order to preserve privacy, I will not disclose total details of this situation but state a friend I had not seen in years amplified my awareness of  my spiritual growth.   Her financial status has intensified my desire to become debt free.  I have a lot of unsecured debt.  She is at ease because she is buying a house.    I see it…..This friend  is two paydays away from the beginning of foreclosure.   She is paid twice a month, has a bi monthly payment for her home and NO RESERVE money  Go figure. Debt is debt, secured or unsecured.  We take ownership of security with a secured debt at the bank that really holds ownership of home.

Recently, a dear acquaintance filed bankruptcy,  lost the house and moved on.  In Astoria, I was aware of two other situations where one of the partners lost a job and the loss of home followed.

Yesterday I met another lady who moved here from Georgia,  running from the past of loss  Her home became a foreclosure, her marriage a divorce,  her car a repossession,  “her life.”   She started over homeless,  earned  $17,000 last year and is doing a bit better this year.

 I am aware of women compromising their moral standards to obtain the favor of man and therefore have the “necessities of life”

We compromise our standards to blend with those of others and become servants to each person we owe.  As a result we are a fragments of the whole person God created us to be.  Then,  Dr. Smarty Pants prescribes an antidepressant to keep us sane………..Excuse me?  What is wrong with this picture.

I am up early and will start getting ready to go to work.  Today, I will look for the good in my job and remember I am in a section of sales which provides a way to increase my income.  It is hard for me to focus on the present moment.  I tend to think of what will happen tomorrow, plan for the day after and sometimes miss the opportunities I need.

Thoughts of tomorrow include: it is payday, tomorrow I will list my debts for comparison, and set goals for the next 4 weeks.  Those goals will be followed with a specific action plan for generating the money to cover my deficit.

I would love to daydream about moving into the little house.  No daydreams allowed!  Those narrators who used to rent a space in my head, telling me that tomorrow everything would work out are evicted,  I am working on today.  Today, I will persist until I succeed, be a selling machine at work and assess the facts late tonight.  My house plans and goals will specifically avoid the path that leads to foreclosure, dread of payments, being a slave to the lenders.